It’s a spangly revue! Like a performance revue, but fun.

And in this case, late in coming for two reasons:

1.) I am so overwhelmed by how huge the blanket fort was for me that I don’t really know how to talk about it, and

2.) I am literally in the process of moving into a new rental place and making an offer on a house to buy. The up-in-the-air-ness. It’s epic.

But I want to talk about this! It’s important! So I’m making time and space for revuing imperfectly.

The Mindful Sexuality Blanket Fort

What went well?

Entry!

I did over a month of entry, really. I embraced this as an identity shift. Who would I have to become to teach this class the way I felt it deserved to be taught? I brought that question to everything. My wedding, my honeymoon, my naps, my walks… How can this help me become the person who can teach the Blanket Fort?

And specifically in the week leading up to it and the day of, I let it have a lot of space. I cleaned my space, made an altar, lit a candle, did yoga, and meditated. I had some notes and materials but didn’t plan out too much in advance. And it (almost) all flowed together really well. The ideas were as clear as the space I’d set up.

Enthusiasm

This was the first time I’ve let myself be so enthusiastic about something with what felt to the monsters like so little to back it up. Yes, I’ve taught sexuality many times in the past. Yes, I know I have a lot of great stuff to teach. Even so, it was scary saying how marvelous I thought the teleclass would be (or even just how marvelous I think sex is) out loud in the world.

But people showed up. I can’t even express how grateful I am to the people who showed up. Everyone I’ve heard back from loved it, but most surprising is that I loved it. There are things I would do differently and things that will naturally improve as I get more experience, but even right now I am totally willing to stand behind this work with pride and heart and say: “Yes. This is what I want to be saying in the world. And more or less how I want to be saying it.” Huge.

Monster Talk

For maybe the three days before the call, I kept open a thread on the Floop (online forum for processing) where I just wrote down everything the monsters were worried about. And negotiated. And negotiated. And negotiated. One day, I spent four hours negotiating with monsters and that was my entire workday. The next day, everything was unstuck. Monster conversations are worth it.

Asking for questions

I kind of did this entire thing with intuition. That was the whole point, actually. And part of that intuition was wanting to answer people’s questions instead of having a whole curriculum. Though I certainly had concepts that I presented. Having the questions was brilliant! It was super helpful. (Again, so grateful to everyone who gave me questions.)

What I may play with next time

Ordering a transcript

Parts of the audio were hard to understand even for me (and it was me talking), and I also was surprised how much I wanted to be able to see all the words visually. Next time, I shall order a transcript. I might even get a transcript for the mp3 I have now.

Advertising the mp3

So there was always going to be a recording of the call, but I didn’t advertise that fact because I my monsters were terrified that something might go wrong with it.

Anyways, lots of people who would have signed up didn’t because they couldn’t make the time. Whereas they might have if I’d been willing to affirm publicly that there’d be a recording. And my monsters have realized that if something goes wrong, we can always just a.)use our backup recording and b.)do a free extra teleclass and record that. Kind of a “no duh” in retrospect.

Getting the mp3 out earlier

After I got off the call, all my plans for the evening ended up falling through and I got anxious and in my stuff. So I didn’t get the mp3 out as soon as I would have liked. Next time, I’d like to make a plan for sending it out almost immediately. Because that would have been very easy to do.

(Also, of course, I would like stronger/clearer exit plans because I changed a bunch of things to accommodate other people and a.)those accommodations were based on a misunderstanding and didn’t actually need to happen and b.)I really didn’t have the room to change my plans. They were important.)

Something about the Ebook

I’m not sure what yet, but I have some clews. They need following.

Overall

I am so very very very glad I did that. It’s totally changed my own sex life, if no one else’s. (And it secretly wasn’t so much about sex anyway, but about pattern change more generally. And neuroscience!).

If you missed the call and want in, I’ll be selling the mp3 recording and ebook sometime next week. Here’s the sales page that needs updating. And in September and October I’m holding two advanced Blanket Forts (teleclasses) on specific topics as-yet-to-be-decided. Hear about it first (and get to tell me what topics you’re specifically interested in) on the Sneaky Peeks Discount List. Discounts are also involved.

Thanks for revuing with me. Spangle spangle spangle. I need to get back to packing.

Love,

Rhiannon + very kicky babylet

P.S. I am so excited to move! Yayayayayay! More on this later.