Category Archives: Pregnancy & Motherhood
Birth Story
Okay guys. I finally finished my birth story! You can read it here. It is very long. Part 1: Prodromal Labor Part 2: Active Labor Part 3: Pushing and Hemorrhaging Part 4: Reflections Four Months Later I wrote most of it four months ago (you know, right after it happened), but even just [...]
Written Sage
I’ve been thinking a lot about ways to make this space, this website but also my business (classes, coaching, online stuff…), more welcoming to my Right People. And one of the more obvious ways I might go about that is by making it a bit more welcoming to me and my me-ness. What if by sharing [...]
And then I lost my words
In some ways, my entire life has been about words. The domain in which I feel most comfortable, the place I fly. (Skis and words. Two places to fly.) I used to feel so comfortable in English. I have a strong submissive streak that pops up in funny places and one of the most obvious, [...]
Six Weeks Postpartum – State of the Baby
Scarlet was born six and a half weeks ago. Which is one of those ridiculous sentences that doesn’t adequately express anything true and real. Six weeks! What is six weeks?! These have been the longest and shortest and fullest and emptiest six weeks of my life! Scarlet? Who is Scarlet? I’ve known her forever and [...]
Welcome Scarlet Ellora
Born at home on November 21st, 2012. Long awaited, long loved. And squeezing in as a Scorpio by an hour. I was writing up the birth story as blog posts but I decided to put them on a page instead and edit them nicely. Maybe they’ll be done today! Maybe some other time. Itsy Bitsy [...]
Inviting All the Birth Fairies
The childbirth class we took was kind of meh, but there is one thing the instructor said that so perfectly illustrated something I’ve been thinking about a lot. “You have to invite all the fairies to your birth. The ones you leave out will tend to come anyway, with gifts you don’t want.” Is it [...]
Sigh of Relief
As I mentioned, we had a kind of crazy time last week when we went to get an ultrasound to try to figure out if our baby had flipped back breech (she hadn’t) and found a mysterious black circular structure that really had no business being inside of her. Yesterday we went to get some [...]
Dear Sweet Baby
On Thursday I found out, in a seriously traumatic encounter with a naturopath, someone who wouldn’t recognize my humanity, that my baby has a mysterious birth defect. On Monday we’ll go get more tests done, but in the meantime (and in my already ragged state), I’m thinking a lot about bodily integrity, perfection, karma, and [...]
Radical Support
I glance in the mirror these days and don’t recognize myself. Not the big belly. As far as my size I might as well be Alice and Wonderland, my sense of self shrinking and growing with each change in my internal relationship to it. I feel smaller now at almost nine months than I did [...]
Thrilling
If you hang out with me on Facebook, you’ve probably heard about my latest obsession… In early September I decided to try doing the Thriller dance with Havi as a lark and realized it was physically easier than it had been the year before.* My chest got all bubbly-full of excitement and I knew everyone [...]
